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Saturday, September 10, 2005

â 12:09 AM

i'm losing my memory..
call me goldfish. (goldfishes have 3 second memory)
i even forgot how to spell my name!
Jorge can testify.. he laughed till his father thought he was nuts.

Justin sent me a song he sang. nice!! its called "yi lai" (chinese song)
he's very modest bout his talents though.. (its really nice!! i'm not kidding!)
discover, people! and ya, dun ever sae u dun have talents.. God gave everyone somthing ok?
maybe just different degrees or different kinds? hmmm..
i dunno what He gave me, but i'm just glad He made me.. bleahx..

i realised i've changed since last saturday's talk with grandpa..
i've learnt to place my problems at God's feet and not depend on me, myself, and i.
i've also somehow learnt to appreciate people more.
forgive me if i have mistreated any of u peeps reading this k... i'm sorry.. really am!
just call me up and scold me or something, if it makes u feel better k?
Min jun asked me this morning what i would do if i found out that i only had 24 hours to live.
well, i freaked out at first.. tot what happen to her. dun worry, she's fine! :D
but the question really kept repeating in my head.
i'm really at a lost too, to be honest..
wondering... hmmmmmm.. i'll make sure all my sins are forgiven first..
den i'll go confront that guy who lied to me!!! u're very bad u know.. u forgot your promise, u forgot what u told me.. its ok.. dun do that in future!!!!!
and i'll tell everyone i love that i love them! wahahaha..
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i dun think i'll tell anyone that i'm going to die though..
actually, if the doc tells me i'm gonna die, i'll do everything i possibly can to prove him wrong.
i noe i noe.. wrong motive. but ya la, that's me. haix..
my lover also sae that's a wrong motive.. heex.. oh no? yes..

argh.. studies lagging.. dunno how i'll survive if i still have this wrong motive.. hicks..

is it strange to be thinking of what it would be like to retire at 16??
or to be thinking of whether people will cry at your funeral?? at 16?????
check this out. losing your memory at 16!!!!
and i thought 16 was sweet.. sweet!

hallelujah..

fireflies believe in fate! ....
i don't..