[(Don't you know it)]

Saturday, February 04, 2006

â 2:26 PM

dun get me wrong! i'm, no shakespeare..
but i'm in luv.. lol.. liek the skin
sorry for not being able to blog.. 2 reasons.
1, home internet down.
2, i've been staying at leon's house for the past few days. (his house nearer to sa)
yupp.. sad hor? haha.. they're really nice to me though. :)

wells, been doing some thinking for some time le..
mainly because i went back to swiss to help out at SJ.
one thing i've realised, sometimes juniors seem to disregard the fact that their seniors and officers are human beings and have feelings too..
maybe its a trend.. haha.. i used to think they were supermen/women. haha..
wells, i guess its getting back at me. go figure.
that was during meeting on wednesday la..

yesterday, on my way back to swiss, i managed to persuade "my best friend" cum OGL, JOEL LUO to buy me a valentines day present. so OG11 pp who are reading this, go ahead and ask him for 1 too!! heex.. and make sure u keep reminding him..! was listening to ge qian too. reminded me of someone.. den i msg him lo... haiyo. he hasn't changed much.. still keep looking down on himself. can't say he has low self esteem.. cuz i dun tink so.. but nevertheless, it was great hearing from him again.. -- i spent the rest of the boring bus ride recalling memories of 2004. more thinking...

den it came to yesterday's parade, was something more heartwarming. haha..
its nice to see your (ex) squad taking over the running of the corp.. and teaching the newly recruited sec 1s. haha.. so cute.. *cries* which makes me wonder again.. is it because i didn't put in much effort to be close to my squad or am i just unlikable? hmmm... (and some more)

haha.. was on the verge of crying yesterday.. almost did.. good thing i didn't.. if not samo and mr wong would have seen me wailing like a baby. haha!

anyways, i did enjoy myself yesterday at swiss.. managed to talk to eric too.. (yes, the cute one) haha.. ok, maybe not really talking.. he was suaning me all the way from bb station to popular, to the cashier, until the lift lobby. :( but nvm la.. he's a pretty nice guy, (beyond the suaning) lol!

at least i had company for the first 15 min of my hour long wait. haha.. borrowed a book too.. haha.. its called <10 things to do before i die> yupp.. i know one of which would be praying for forgivenesss.. haa.. yupp.. change the subject!! this is so depressing..

yesterday da jie on 985 kept raking up my past habits. i dunno what to say to them, but they weren't exactly my glorious past. and i've been trying very hard not to think about them so i won't do them again. not that i'm pissed, but its just frustrating when one won't let you let go of the past and carry on with NEW habits. can? like, just let me go. dun have to keep reminding me, as well as tell the whole world that i use to have that problem. i'm not trying to commit suicide anymore ok?? i'm not like the person u knew in 2004. that's past, history, burried soemwhere. just stop digging it up anymore.

not much of a lighter note, but well, on a lighter note, i've realised that once spoiled friedships (due to *honesty) can't be repaired anymore. yupp.. numerous examples can prove that easily. i've tried, tested, and none worked. ive done my part.. doing no more.

what's done is done, u just leave it alone, and dun regret it