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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

â 10:55 PM

wells.. i'm back.. hehe..
december has been more busy than november. i guess i'll never get my homework done. sigh.
but anyway, lo and behold, its already the 12th!!
i've been made to make tough decisions on what to do since the start of december. well, i couldn't please everyone and ended up upseting myself even more. i dunno.. its like, i dun tink i'm spreading myself out too thin. its just that all the events happened to clash. yes. its not that i wanted it to be this way ok?
first there was orientation dry run and gospel meeting. managed to attend both without missing anything, cuz dry run ended early. =)
then there was aabl, swiss ATC, and grad night. like, 3 different commitments that i take seriously and they're what really matter in my life. and when i choose one over another, then it seemed like i didn't care about one. i'm not getting back at someone. no. i'm just sayin what i feel. and hoping that pp who read this will like, understand. i won't find u a nag for reminding me more often. being the goldfish that i am, i would even appreciate it, thank you very much. yea.. so since everything clashed, sacrifices had to be made.
so lessons learnt:
1) u have to sacrifice something to belong.
2) well, that's about it.

sometimes first aiders are casualties too. Vincent just lost his brother.. he had fits and stopped breathing. noone performed CPR on him till much later. first aider: Vincent. i feel very sad for him.. i can't imagine losing my own brother. probably will cry my eyes out. worse still if it was my sister or either one of my parents. dun want that to happen.. but everyone has to die. sigh.. it was then that i thought about the St John's aim: to have at least a first aider in every home, every school, every office. i finally see the importance of that.. surprisingly, Mavin made the front page of the newpaper on thursday.. read it while at ATC. sigh..

on a brighter note, my bridesmaid role in my bro's wedding is much simpler than i thought. yayee.. was helping him plan manpower list for the church wedding segment, yupp.. think all i did was to change his spelling mistakes and think of more people suited for the job. i noticed too that he is really an organised person. (to a certain extent) all tht columns widths and font size were painstakingly changed (partially because he didn't really know how to work with excel) but anyway, that's besides the point. so exciting!!!! can't wait for his wedding to come. 53 more days! wow.. that's like super short period of time. have to think of invitation card design and decorations for the auditorium.. haha.. BIGG event.. praying that everything will turn out fine and that God will bless my bro and dad sao. haha..

dunno why i'm so tired nowadays.. i'm not really keeping track on how long i sleep, but it seems to be more than during school days.. somehow just feel more tired. perhaps its the weather. ha.. speaking of weather, i hope the weather in thailand is good. ben is having his holiday there.. miss him. its only like, 2 days? haha.. i baked a cake today using one of the recipes in the book he bought for me. haha.. its quite nice, surprisingly. haha.. yayee! alrighty.. its 14 months and 4 days.. random! haha.. i love u, ben. =)

so i lay my head back down?
and i lift my hands and pray:
to be only yours i pray...