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Friday, April 13, 2007

â 11:23 PM

whee! i'm finally free to blog. lol..
anyway.. i did terribly for my blocktest 1 and pw. argh.. better start studying much harder now..
reminds me of my o level days. not very fond ones but, oh wells..
i rediscovered some stuff about myself.
1) i cry easily.. esp if it has to do with Jesus' death.. songs, mimes, shows? even passages from the bible.. i dunno.. i feel guilty that an innocent, PERFECT man/ God had to die so terribly for me. (and u too!)

2) i luuuuurrrrrvvvvvvvvvveeeeee oreo cheese cake! haha..
actually i have samo to thank.. cuz if it wasn't for her birthday, i wouldn't have made the cheese cake. haha.. =) was pretty sad she didn't really like it though.. i'll learn blueberry cheese cake for your next birthday ok? sorry sorry. lol..
anyway.. i really llllluuuuurrrrrvvvvveeee oreo cheese cake. tastes even better when u know who made it. ha! quite a few pp said it was nice too!

3) my fear of SBJ
argh. cuz of that i cannot get my gold for napfa!!! :(:(:( must contribute to the growing pool of gold-achievers of my class!

4) my weird taste
i realised that most of the guys that i like(d) are mostly look beng. lol! hmmm... maybe cuz i'm lian too? lol!!!!! okok.. that's just wrong.

5) low self confidence
i'm trying to get out of it and i can't. i really can't.. sorry to those i might have offended by brushing away whatever u said about me. my results just prove everything.

6) love for piano/music
i went for lesson yesterday, lol.. so funny la. i owe my cher 2 months worth of fees and didn't even realised. lol! but the pieces she taught me were great. i think i'm falling in love with jazzy pieces more and more. =) THen after lesson, got a call from melvin while waiting for 985 to come. (it took so long i ALMOST totally regretted even waiting) yea, but anyway, melvin and grant boarded the bus. haha.. melvin kept asking me if he was cute. heh.. can't really remember what i answered him but oh wells. lol!
he blogged about me and yea, i'm pretty surprised that afer only seeing me for a few minutes he can come up with so much to say. haha.. and i thought all guys were not observant. lol.. i was lost for words after reading his entry.. didn't think anyone would think of me that way; everyone is asking how my mom is doing. well, yea.. i'm not the centre of that entry anyway.. but thanks for blogging bout me Grant! your name is as unique as mine! yay. we have something in common. lol..

Friday the 13th- the only scary thing that happened was my results. on the other hand, more great things happened. glad he called. it's been a long long time since we chatted on the phone. and i bet he still doesn't know why i travel halfway cross the island to go to school for 2 years. sounds dumb i know.. maybe that's what i am.. well, that conversation brought back lots of memories; good and bad.. things will never be the same again. i know..

i'm beginning to feel more and more detached from SA. regretting more and more of coming here. maybe its because of my results. ok. maybe its largely cuz of my results but.. who have i to blame but myself. yet again.. "noone is here by chance" maybe i have a purpose there..

i'm just sitting here waiting for that something great to happen. pls God, just help me... pls.

"if you love someone, let him/her go. if he/she returns to u, he/she is really yours. letting go is hard. but accepting that the person has come back to u is harder..."