truth: i am very confused now

truth: i can't force myself to study

truth: i really really wanna run away right now

truth: i am very extremely sincerely sorry to the both of you

truth: i might be heading back to how i was like before

truth: i don't want u to forget me, ever

truth: i cannot bare to see u cry for your information.

truth: i don't know how much longer i can keep myself together

truth: i feel like dying

truth: u've opened doors that i never imagined anyone could. like u just took my breath away and i still can't breathe. its really unbelieveable that i met someone like u. i wanna explore deeper but fear is hollding me back

truth: i don't think u'll understand. but its ok. it is the truth

truth: it hurts, like hell lot.

truth: i don't know how its gonna be like in the future. so i really cannot promise everything to go as planned but i'll try.

truth: i hope God forgives me.